Case of the X

Recently I have been through a lot of struggles since the change of winds did their change. This last struggle however hasn’t been a new one but one always present that I didn’t realized since I was having so much fun. But lately this problem has mount into the other series.

So I got a nice friend, gf, or something, usually things are very nice with her? However, there are just this big dark spots that take place when she gets to this crappy city.

It’s odd to see how pesant people get so excited about the lights. I guess it is exciting, however for one that have lived in cities almost all it’s life, this is well… just that.

With this post I am not triying to hurt the persons that might find themselves in that position, but is just rather about me. I am on a terrible stage of confusion since I haven’t been able to fully understand the way people in this country think. Very primitive I might say, but also very odd in their own way. In the states the rules were set and it was pretty cool. It was a game, it was fun and the motto was, if it feels right, then do it.

However there seem to be here a lot less taboos and a lot more mental walls that has to be broken. Until then I guess I just have to learn to be more pantient and wait. I consider myself demanding but at the end demanding is what I should been, just to take things seriously. I guess that if I wasn’t demanding it will show as if I don’t care. And I think that is what I am not getting at all.

I am a playa who hasn’t play anybody but myself, and is time to change that. I have give too much importance to things that just don’t. At the end of the day, things is all about what you did, not what you feel like doing.


Man of no Land Pt II

Wow it has been a while since I post, but I have at least kept the blog on my mind. Several issues had passed in this few weeks. On the new Man of no land series, I wanted to go to Barcelona when I was stoped by the Passport officers, it seems that I have make a few infractions on my passport.

However this few turn out to be a behemonth pile of problems that will not just cancelled my plans to go to Barcelona which ironically was to fix my visa status but also got myself into a true man of no land situation as I got an enterdiction. Now I am stuck in romania for the following year unless I get this waved by some authority.

My question is why I didn’t have any problems in Bulgaria which I went just a few months ago. And why I could even come back in Romania with no serious problem.

Fortunately I have got some news that will help keeping my ass out of problems and my company and organization are also backing me up.

Why is so hard??

So one thing I have seen dealing with mexican groups is that they literaly take ages to make a decision. I am not sure if ages of working on a bureacratic system or just simply not being interested in anything else that whatever is actually affecting them.

But the reality is while the IT cluster have taken 1 1/2 years trying to push the the update of the school teaching scheme. One guy in the UK has made that possible for already 80 places distributed in 8 countries — in just 5 months.

Looking into my archives I start discovering presentations about all these topics that are finally comming to place here. However it seem like it will take ages to acomplish the level of innovation I was presenting a year ago.

The saddest part is that after all this time the education system hasn’t still got it. When we talk about software development we talk about programming and NOT design, nor office/marketing/business skills. I am still wondering how many years will it take to actually make the implementation.

First IRC Meetings

Isn’t it great when people meet. We are just right after the IRC meetings that took place at irc:#ooonl We have a great participation from the community.

Even if it was a very small talk it was definetly a breakthrough in the community. Hopefully we will have more of these. It was fun to see all the people I met in Berlin and some that I have still just me through the IRC / Mailing lists.

Even most important is interesting the way things get ‘at least in word’ — done. The OOoArt project, Native-language project and other projects also got some work done.

At the end the talk was a success and I think we would be seen a more interesting talks as we keep this OOo conferences. My talk is on April so stay tunned. 🙂

New Day

Well after the aftermath of last week, I am still getting to coup with the stability of a sane life. I guess is time to rebuild and my search is on for reconstructing some of the damage experienced last week. The good thing is that life goes on and we can just do things we thought a week ago were lost forever. Even if i can still feel the burden now is much more lighter. I hope the week after this one becomes like the normal always great week.

The end of a bad weekend

This week was Baaaad, just as I was feeling the winds change, I now face the wind blowing south. First we got a start with a really big project at work, and like my boss put it out a chunck of bone too big to chew.

So at the middle of the week we saw the project was diying and with that my intervention as a project manager. By the end of the week I was moved to support.

I really wish we could have gotten a better planning of the project but I guess it was just part of the beginning of a streak.

This week was February 14 so I wanted to do something nice for my intimate one. That was the last good thing that happened to a relationship that just die this weekend. Today I just gave the final blow and end up with no girlfriend.

Finally bad news from across the sea as I found out we still havent waved the debth we have with one of our spoke people and after a month almost, my partners hability to solve problems are incredibly limited. I praise him for his boldness in the business world, but not having nor looking for the desired intelligence has driven him into a mexican hell — and me with him.

The OOo community hasn’t shown signs of life lately, as we are submerging on some dark ages of confusion and doubt.

The good thing is that the week is over and after the rain, the sun always rise.

Distribution Channels and Open Source

As XpoLinux 2005 comes closer I’ve been thinking on business needs from the open source community and the correct way of marketing not just open source but any product. What are the base, fundamental, area of businesses needed by not just software but any-product like food.

So what should XpoLinux acomplish this 2005, what should be the main focus of the Xpo. I think the focus should be networking.

XpoLinux fortunately is not just an isolated project, but with the OpenBusiness simultaneously going hand on hand, we should focus on business experts not just technology expert.

I think XpoLinux should contact experts on distribution channels, atract resellers and just take over the business channels currently implemented.

As developers and advocates on development we tend to think as improve of the product, but we don’t waste many braincells on the market of the product to the right costumers on the right package they can understand.

For that reason we could hit a slam dunk on the Mexican and latin america interface.

Culture Changing

So this time around the OOo community is facing a wall, a big wall. Unfortunately this wall is spreading and is making the project less and less fun.

Before getting into this, I will like to talk about the issues when a community is not trully free. The issue is that it comes back to hunt them. Sure is free in the sense we have our community leaders and everyone can join and everyone can become a leader. But then again there is a ghost that usually lingers and manage around the community.

This ghost misteriously stop ideas and promotes other ones. This ghost make parts of the community grow and part of the community misteriously dissapear.

The real issues is that you can’t really narrow it down, but exist on each one of the members without even knowing it. However this ghost is not bad, is not good is just is. Problem is that when this ghost turn evil is very hard to attack it, let alone kick it out.

Going back to OOo, making OOo ghosts and skeletons out of our closet will be rather hard but is even harder when we can’t even see them.

Building a community is hard, and managing it is even harder. Is very time consuming and is usually not always rewarded, so why do we do it? Maybe because we weren’t thinking about them on the first place, just ourself and the technology. I guess we need to value that a community is always around us to support us and when we forget about them the ghosts start turning evil.

Wiki the world

Well my GAIM MSN connection just stopped working, like if I cared. 😀
What I do care is about getting more documentation so I can boot my modem on my Mandrake. I just download wvdial and wvstream so I can finally get some internet on my Linux box.

After succesfully compiling about 3 packages I have enjoyed myself more learning about gcc than the actual application which I needed at that time.

Why is this fun, well because as my pains, anguish and joy develops, a wiki is keeping track of all my phases until the final success.

Speaking about the wiki, it is so powerful that it even influence and document not just while I am awake but also while sleeping. Today I dreamed about getting a cracker (not hackers) into my laptop because I was using windows, the logic of the attack was also very realistic. I boot windows and get on line, then I went to my room and when I return a warning message comming from the IM warning me that a user wanted to send me a file.

I didn’t accept it but what really happened was that the contact was putting files and the only near warning from the software was just that warnning. So as I thought the user will give up, he was actively populating my laptop with his junk.

The fun part was the attack he left me, he found my image folder and modify it to a gif animated file so he used my pictures to mock at myself.

I remember I felt pretty frustrated because I knew I could have prevented using linux and activating the shorewall firewall to auto-block my ports.

Well now I am really surfing on a securest way monitoring what comes in and out of my computer and rapidly downloading all the packages I need to jump on line with a secure OS, not this virus-like winbugs.

February.. so far

Well I haven’t update my page recently, I have no idea what to put so I’ll just mention about a compilation of my life in this past week. I got a kickstart at work with some real projects and I am currently under examination. The piece of software is a framework more than a product so the learning curve is very steep. I think our managers are dissapointed because we didn’t coup to learn the product as fast as their expected. Some of the people around the company that we asked specific stuff about the product couldn’t give a similar answer.

2 days ago I went to Piatra Neamt, this is like the 4th time I have gone there but this was the harder so far. I took a train that wouldn’t go direct which make it even harder once I got there. The train went to Bacau and I have to wait for 3 hours in one of the coldest days so far. The frustrating part is that the final destination was just 1 hour away. I could have easily got there on a Maxi Taxi (shuttle), but I couldn’t find the station and for that reason I have to freeze my ass. I couldn’t even find an internet cafe to at least enjoy 2 hours of e-mail checking which was better than getting gipssies triying to sell me stolen jewerly. The way back was even more painful as I froze my ass for 4 hours on a heat-less shuttle all the way to back to bucharest.

I got 99 problems but a bitch aint one…. actually that’s kind of true. I wouldn’t classify it as a problem but a crossroad. I am here in romania keeping good company but sometimes I wonder where am I going with this. I enjoy the time I am spending in Romania and my friends are usually good ones, but something feels kinda odd. Not sure what it is, hope to find about it soon.

In other things, my apartment looks clean finally after almost a month of pure crapp all over the place.